Baby talk has taken over my life, I believe now, that my girlfriend and I have taken that step in order to become parents. I guess it’s a dame good thing because I have had four positive pregnancy tests. Granted the lines were faint they were there. I am trying not to get too excited and emotional about it until I get 100% confirmation from a doctor, which will happen tomorrow. But there are many thoughts running through my mind.
Will I be a good parent? Will my baby have what she needs? Can I provide wholly for another life? These are very deep feelings and I realize that I can’t put this baby in the corner. I’m okay with this, because since we inseminated, the only thing I can think about is how bad I want this. I want this for me AND for my partner. I believe it is very important to want something so life-changing for yourself first and then others. Some people have babies for the wrong reasons and then they are left alone and surprised that they are alone raising a child. I don’t want to be that woman. I know what motherhood entails and I am willing to sacrifice what is needed to keep my baby first priority.
If you are a lesbian, do you have kids? How did you have kids: the old-fashioned way, insemination or adoption? Are you with the same partner that you had the children with? How do you like motherhood? Tell me your stories, I think maybe I need some personal accounts from my readers in order to grasp this huge experience that I am going through! Share your stories and opinions, it’s for a great cause…my sanity!